silence

Silence

It's really quite fascinating, how sometimes words lose their worth. How they are unable to possess power to evoke meaning or feeling. Have you ever heard a pathetic "I'm sorry" from someone, and you almost leapt out of your seat from anger? Sometimes it’s not the words we hear; we hear the message underneath, especially when it’s insincere. In my opinion words are overrated. In the stillness of a mesmerizing moonlit night, two lovers can speak volumes using their eyes.

I’ve found that humans during moments of strong sentiment often are left speechless. Even if my mouth refuses to utter expressions, my heart has refused to stop hurting. I'm finding it hard to breathe, even harder is the arduous task of keeping my lips from quivering. I'm standing against a pillar inside the mosque, literally hugging myself to keep from falling. Having knowledge that this day would come in no way was a preparation for the sight that lay in front of me. The past few days have been extraordinarily difficult and trying for this family. Glancing around the room, I can see some criers like myself, others who prefer to hug, and so many that don't really know how to react. Odd things happen at these sorts of places, enemies embrace, friendships are weighed and epiphanies realized. It's really quite ironic that people think more deeply about life when there is a loss of one. A patriarch of this family has passed, and in his own special way has inspired others to look within themselves to find purpose, and appreciation of life. For some he was a father, a brother, an engineer, for me he was a confidant. We often shared wordless conversations, be it with a roll of the eye, or the flick of our hands.  

 Arshia, a cousin of mine has been leaning against the other side of the pillar, still propping myself up with one hand, I manage to reach with the other. The cool grooves of the pillar are a stark contrast to her warm hand. Our tilted heads and eyes meet and in that minuscule moment, a story is shared between us. In my opinion words are overrated.